Photobucket Album
Sunday, October 5, 2008
from 1st Holly Q & A
this is a summary of all the bits we found interesting, under titles:
things NOT saskia.
+ descriptions that back-up statements of opinion. e.g 'why ari appeals to her? - that he fits an idea.' that's an emma comment. This statement isn't something she would say. Saskia doesn't need to justify.
+ again, she doesn't doesn't justify beliefs and choices in her life apologetically.
+ she doesn't think her father was a good man and she wouldn't lie about that fact to make friends or other people, or herself, comfortable. There is no need to make things cosy. 'If you can't be good to your family, who can you be good to?'
+ Ari and her have never really broken up because they've never really been together.
vocal notes:
+ watch Spanish videos, news, u-tube. get more of a sense of the language.
+ practice having a reason to chat on the land line to people like sensis, telstra, information lines. the rhythm she speaks with and the style she interacts with is a good key in to her. Its also important for any interaction we put into the final work. Her style.
+ thoughts about how her voice sounds in Spain, what does she like about the Spanish accent, what does she want to keep, how does she converse as Saskia with all the Spanish stuff in mind.
+ has come to across as someone who absolutely knows, she knows what she's doing, a good interviewer... a well read t.v presenter. When you are talking to her, you feel you're getting a little secret just for you.
ari and love
+ love of life he does
+ saskia hasn't had a lot of relationships, moving around, constantly changing languages, what has her moving done actually?... but her sense of being close, from this moving, from dad, has been skewed a little. Her parents didn't touch much, show the lovey affection, and so she has become really good as being friends with both girls and boys, men and women. Every man is not a potential lover.
+ she is aware of being attractive and looking good BUT looking good & intimacy do not go hand in had. Appearance is appreciated but not indicative of her inner emotions for someone... she doesn't want to kiss everyone who had done a good job of putting themselves together basically.
+ doesn't have the same 'we are the same soul' because we both look good
+ she loves ari's stories about family, and his relationship to family
+ both Ari and Saskia don't think the other loves them, both don't want to interrupt each other...MORE they don't want to say they care, and take the risk of changing what they have or driving the other away.
+ the trip to Australia has put a safe distance between them. But safe for what? what is next? how long can you go NOT telling someone you love them?
+ Spain in her place, not her family's place.
what does he love about her?
+ that she gets embarrassed when someone gives her a compliment that comes from a loving place.
+ passion for what she sees, for her constant brain photography, seeing beauty in things instantly that many others either don't or need time to find i.e paint on the pavement, a wall in a toilet.
+ he believes this is because is she sees beauty then it is in her soul.
+ so loyal to her friends. very little is more important that their needs
+ she doesn't burden anyone with stuff she can really work out herself.
+ she shows him the pictures, explains her POV and she doesn't do that with many. He feels chosen.
+ he doesn't buy her bull shit as much as the others... he knows when she is showing her self, when she feels at home.
+ he'll help her fall
+ gets to the heart of what she wants to do and he doesn't make her know the he knows that!
+ he un-locks big parts of her. even if she doesn't communicate them, he knows it to be true. it shows in her pictures.
parents and family
+ father has dies, saskia has questions, she knows that a trip to her mums place for any longer than 2 days means she's going to start asking. She really doesn't know who he was, or what the good parts of him were.
+ Mum & Bro don't live in Bordertown. They live in a small, beach-side location, like Millicent... Bondi connection.
+ Grandma is dads mum, but still lives close to them.
+ Her relationship with her brother is deeply respectful.
+ Dad was cremated and the ashes sent to Grandma.
on clothes:
+ Need to learn fashion lingo...'funky' is not a word she would use (and not a word anyone should use according to Holly).
+ Google fashion Terminology and lingo.. she would know what she was talking about in the clothes department.
dancing style:
+ more dance-y movements, not so constructed. Take some dance classes, she would know how to dance with someone else.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
saskia travels
i took quite a few photos in sydney, and now when i look through them, i can say... that's her, that's me, that's me... that's almost her but not quite. the visual reference to developing a character is kind of really the outside looking in... distant. but its also kind of intimate to, like being able to look in a mirror when you are filming a scene and not think, 'oh my god, that's me, acting.' but this is her.
everything Saskia isn't...
we watched the filming of Saskia walking around the city. 3 times. After watching, Holly and I sat on the couch, silent. I was pale.
'So, what do you think?' miss holly asks.
'Oh dear. That's not Saskia. We don't have her, she's not there'
This was a head on turning point. It was such a disappointment... i was in a bit of a theatrical panic at that point. i was lost back in the abyss. i have a need to latch on to the known and i want to know the known as soon as possible so then i can begin to head everything towards the package of the performance. then its controlled and i can't fuck it up. its fear pretty much, plain and simple. Watching the footage, then reading through some writing exercises, then looking through some pictures, it came clearly and distilled what Saskia isn't...
I know what she's not.
She's not a sad soul
She's not a boring party
She's not woe is me, she is not angst or brown or beige.
She's not your average aussie
She's not lonely (but she has some love she is missing out on)
She's not someone you can see her pain on, she has a fantastic mask and that is what will make getting underneath it through all the other sensory tools available will be an interesting experience in any way for the viewers. If there's nothing to find, what is the fun in snooping?
Holly has been running some question and answer sessions with me as Saskia. They are on the couch therapy style with a blindfold. These have been a rich source of information, emotion and after our time spent finding the ins and outs of her aesthetic, trying walks, shoes and interactions on for size, these quiet sessions have worked well with coming up with some answers and a lot of questions. We've recorded these and as soon as I find a way to upload those files, then that I will.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
